About People

I suddenly have this urge to close this blog down. Haha.

I suddenly don't feel like I want 'some' people I know who reads this to read them. Not you Chris, not you Tin... certainly not you guys.

As I was doing my usual 10km, I have come to remind myself that all irritant in life MUST be purged from the system as there is karma that will bite if you don't. I MUST.

I have come to acknowledge how 'some' people have the tendency never be lesser than me and that I should always just forget about what has been said on my face just when they want to feel better. Despite me shoving them aside by preaching that they are to deal with their insecurities, it does to some extend irritates me when peeps try compensating their laurels against mine. But who are they kidding really?

I am what I am. They are what they are. Who is saying really that I'm better or they are lesser?

So it has really come to a point that I have indeed avoid a number of peeps who has come to know me. I'm sorry but I need to avoid some people just so my life is more palatable. As after all, to a lot of extend I am sensitive, thick skin I can sometimes be.

I mean, who cares with really you could do a loop within 10mins as opposed to me some 5mins plus. Who really cares. After all, I train for different purpose and I know what I want. I mean, peeps can't just take to compare how fast I run simply when their purpose is just to be healthy whereas mine is to complete sub-2 hour for a half marathon. It's like trying to compare a SL500 v F450. Both cars are made for different purpose. You can't compare.

I have also come to avoid people who are consistently with attitude problem. Though mine isn't any better. Haha. But someone has to prevail and I think it's my attitude I'm willing to live with, not someone else's. Haha.

This girl has made me feel sick doing yoga with the group in the office and so much so that I have stopped yoga for yonk months. And I realised it is not yoga's fault that I am shunning it away so I should just keep up by being a little more discipline and find my way again to be with yoga. I mean, if there is a will, there is a way.

Yoga is the far and few body resistance exercise I get to keep me very strong. I'm withering by the days as I keep missing it. And even more so, I should not stop just because I feel I do not want to be near 'such people' and is made similar to that 'such people.'

I should just open up my heart and let it be. I'm me. She is she. While I feel she has also tendencies to follow me as much as she would like too (tho not as bad as SOL), I do wish I can tell her to chill it. It's ironic when people chooses to do the exact same exercise you do from running to yoga to cycling. I'm now waiting for her to also start rock climbing, tennis and how about diving (she mentioned to me once that she is so interested to get the license). Oh well...

Really, I feel sometimes, at 37, for Buddha's sake, try getting your own identity and don't falter behind me like a drunkard without quite sense who really you are.

At some point in time, I was wondering to myself from SOL, to this peeps I just mentioned, what is up with trying to be like me? Am I THAT likable or THAT cool to try following suit the stuff I am passionate about? Or is it really that you think you need to have stuff like this to be my friend?

Then also, there was this funny relative. How funny she is. The more my Lapin friend speaks about her and the more we discuss, I have come to realized she is quite a fake from a series of events. She is nice to Eugene because she adores him but other than that, she doesn't quite bother and take the effort to stay nice as a family. Which I feel is such a fake.

But I at this juncture I know I can't stand the attitude and I just want to stay away from such peeps as far as I can because I just want to be with real peeps. Fakers and posers are really not my cup of tea. I don't even want them near me.

On the hind side of things, I have met real peeps too. So real that they have now become my new friends. They reminded me of many things I have been missing since living out here on my own in KL with Eugene.

They taught me the meaning of real friendship, real companionship, real ties, real concern, real support and real laughter. They keep abreast with my life with genuine interest (no pretense, no agenda) and they never, never choose to make me smaller. Instead, they make me feel bigger than I thought I already am and they filled my life with lots of love. I shall not vent how much more they have showered me but they sure are great gift which have popped up in my life.

It's nice to really find real peeps. And let me say, as usual, they are not from KL. Let me again be reminded that peeps born and bred in KL generally are like Maggi Mee. Very bad for health when you consume it overly. Haha.

I have had many happenings in my life though I'm short of penning it down now. Mainly because I don't feel like sharing with that 'certain' people and so I rather have it summed in cute drawings or picture as it tells a thousand words in FB. Besides, writing really tell my inner most thoughts about every single stuff that passes by, unadulerated. I so don't want those peeps to read.

Guess that is my rant for now. I'll leave the post with thoughts about the peeps I like and dislike... and let's see how I'll eventually fair from them all... :-)

Socks for Japan

My oh my, once a month's update is not doing good in maintaining a blog Ms Verniela.

Oh well, was it that the novelty of blogging has subsided or I'm simply busy with life? It's the latter of course. Even if this blog isn't a blog, I would have sought avenue to write my thoughts, somewhere in cyberspace...

From the last, MIL is recuperating from her major operation and thus in a matter of days or weeks, she will commence her radiotheraphy and I am seeing it as all good and awesome. I'm elated.

In fact for the past 1 week, I have been feeling happy about things despite small glitches here and there but then again, there is no such thing as runway smooth in thing thing call life. I'm at least happy about work so long I dont' get breath-down-the-neck to submit some stupid deliverables that is execuriatingly pain in the ass or getting hammering from my Boss for some funny looking crap numbers. While Loser has tendered his resignation, now it's the Keropi who is taking over. Oh, so be it as so long it doesn't make me a penny poorer, why should I be concern? It's work after all.

We (colleagues and friends) collected a good RM4K and by the good hearted means of my colleagues, purchased some 800+ socks for Japan given that they were lack of basic neccessities like this where peeps often forget to donate. So all in all, with others who donated socks and money, we managed to gather a total 1000+ stocks. The interesting part about this is, with the socks, there are still work to be done. We had to pack them individually into plastic bags and stick encouraging notes on each socks. Imagine the factory production line we went through getting this sorted. Haha. But it was fun. Of course, the pain was it when Jee and gang had to do the socks shopping. Imagine having to carry the hundreds into the car, to the office for us to all pack up. Fuh!!! But like every charity work, there is always someone or some souls who are pain the ass. Those peeps who do nothing much but acted like they were the peeeps who did the running around and organizing. And so much so that acted as if they champion the entire cause. I hate peeps like this. Hate to the core despite the fact that I know this is a strong word to be used on someone. And the best part of it all is, like I was in Collections, it is peeps like this that can't stop taking pictures so that they could eventually show off to other uninvolved peeps that they are doing something about it. But I find that there is always the fine distinction between peeps who want to account for the things they do to enable them to inform fellow donors where their contribution have gone to versus those that wanted to show off. Sad. I supposed in every goodness of the many peeps, there will always be 1 or 2 idiots who would remind us, don't forgot they are assholes too just when you are feeling life is great. These are the very peeps that knocks reality into your senses when you are in Cloud 9. Haha. However though, there is so much in life that one can be bothered to remain sane and happy. So you need to discard such idiots but mildly be reminded. Haha. However said, for me, it was nice having to see those socks folded with a message attached, getting packed into the many plastic bags, then transported into the car, then to the courier company, then being packed into the DHL boxes, then sealed, then having Michelle to filled in the dockets that addressed them to Sano Tochigi and knowing some hundreds of peep over in Japan will be kept warm!!! It's a super duper feeling. Well, so much for now. Back to running. Catch ya.