Over the weekend I was invited to have dinner at my in-laws place since my BIL has returned from Singapore. Apparently, we were supposedly to have a family dinner but hey, it turned out that there was a party.
Oh PARTY!
Yucks.
I hate her parties because she always invites the people I detest. And indeed, she did.
SIL invited the ex-colleagues I previously had who were were 'gang' of friends.
Yeah, I'm going to bitch here because I have longed not been doing it.
Birds of the same feather flock together and indeed all of the same bulu were flocking that night in the house.
I don't know how many times I have rolled my eyes and how many times I have sticked my tongue.
In fact, right after dinner, I went upstairs, turned on the lappy and had long chats with Adrian, Pete and Evonne. Partly gossiping about those birds and other nonsensical chats as we tatter along.
I do wonder if that is all she has for friends. I mean, don't she have some fresh faces I have not seen before that does not want to make me puke the moment I look at their faces? Don't she have such decent, nice friends other than this bunch of hilly billy?
On the other hand, as I have said, what do I expect when the same bird with the same flock are together right?
I'm so tired actually. Tired of her ways of working so hard to show off. Show off her house to people. How big it is. How nice it is. How many nice cars it parks. How this and how that.
Yeah, people can be asking me why do I bother? That is correct. Why?
I guess it has come to a point and time where I should not even lift an eye brow to people like her because they are so not worth it. It's like wasting a speck of energy bothering.
I guess this is like one of those occasion when as you were trudging along happily on your yellow brick path, and here comes a big blop of shit, spoiling your journey. So you stop, you fred a little, then you just top toed off by the side of the clean path and start wandering again. And continue with your joyful mode.
I guess this is one of those occasion. :-)
Anyway, I really don't know if this ugly cow SOL stop keeping up with me. I really don't know but on some occasion like this, she does piss me with her furtile attempt. And it even irritates me more when she gets it better than me.
Sometimes I do ask God where is the fairness in life? Is there even any?
Haha...
I mean there has been occasion when I am sure that her career position in the rat race that she viewed to be better off than me is currently keeping her very happy (because she thinks I am a rank lower than her and etc shits). But honestly, and childishly, I wish to be telling her out right how much I earn a month and how much bonus I get a year just to get back at her. Plus, the fact that I get respect from banking folks for the stuff I do as opposed to hers pariah operations which higher echelon people won't even THINK of working there (tho of course, I came from there back then but that is entirely a different story because I have been labelled THEIR pariah while I was there for a good 8 fucking years).
Oh yeah, how can I compete with a 'department head' right when I am reporting to a department head here? And how can I even be on the same playing field or better playing field as her when she has some 50-70 people working under her when I only have 2 right?
That, is what is making her happy.
Plus the fact that she is driving that very sad E90, and me a mere E46. Where am I compared to her?
To add to the cream, her husband is earning in tonnes as compared to my husband since he is earning good Singapore dollar which is 2x the amount of what even we combined earn.
She even lived in a huge supposedly bungalow worth some RM800K when I am only living in a condominium without a garden with koi fishes and the entire load of rubbish she would like to use to console herself.
Oh PARTY!
Yucks.
I hate her parties because she always invites the people I detest. And indeed, she did.
SIL invited the ex-colleagues I previously had who were were 'gang' of friends.
Yeah, I'm going to bitch here because I have longed not been doing it.
Birds of the same feather flock together and indeed all of the same bulu were flocking that night in the house.
I don't know how many times I have rolled my eyes and how many times I have sticked my tongue.
In fact, right after dinner, I went upstairs, turned on the lappy and had long chats with Adrian, Pete and Evonne. Partly gossiping about those birds and other nonsensical chats as we tatter along.
I do wonder if that is all she has for friends. I mean, don't she have some fresh faces I have not seen before that does not want to make me puke the moment I look at their faces? Don't she have such decent, nice friends other than this bunch of hilly billy?
On the other hand, as I have said, what do I expect when the same bird with the same flock are together right?
I'm so tired actually. Tired of her ways of working so hard to show off. Show off her house to people. How big it is. How nice it is. How many nice cars it parks. How this and how that.
Yeah, people can be asking me why do I bother? That is correct. Why?
I guess it has come to a point and time where I should not even lift an eye brow to people like her because they are so not worth it. It's like wasting a speck of energy bothering.
I guess this is like one of those occasion when as you were trudging along happily on your yellow brick path, and here comes a big blop of shit, spoiling your journey. So you stop, you fred a little, then you just top toed off by the side of the clean path and start wandering again. And continue with your joyful mode.
I guess this is one of those occasion. :-)
Anyway, I really don't know if this ugly cow SOL stop keeping up with me. I really don't know but on some occasion like this, she does piss me with her furtile attempt. And it even irritates me more when she gets it better than me.
Sometimes I do ask God where is the fairness in life? Is there even any?
Haha...
I mean there has been occasion when I am sure that her career position in the rat race that she viewed to be better off than me is currently keeping her very happy (because she thinks I am a rank lower than her and etc shits). But honestly, and childishly, I wish to be telling her out right how much I earn a month and how much bonus I get a year just to get back at her. Plus, the fact that I get respect from banking folks for the stuff I do as opposed to hers pariah operations which higher echelon people won't even THINK of working there (tho of course, I came from there back then but that is entirely a different story because I have been labelled THEIR pariah while I was there for a good 8 fucking years).
Oh yeah, how can I compete with a 'department head' right when I am reporting to a department head here? And how can I even be on the same playing field or better playing field as her when she has some 50-70 people working under her when I only have 2 right?
That, is what is making her happy.
Plus the fact that she is driving that very sad E90, and me a mere E46. Where am I compared to her?
To add to the cream, her husband is earning in tonnes as compared to my husband since he is earning good Singapore dollar which is 2x the amount of what even we combined earn.
She even lived in a huge supposedly bungalow worth some RM800K when I am only living in a condominium without a garden with koi fishes and the entire load of rubbish she would like to use to console herself.
She has so many branded handbags when I have only that far few which is countable with my 10 little fingers.
She has so many watches, that she has to take turns wearing them and occasionally she forgets about some too.
Yeah, she is that much better than me. To so much extend that I am here, typing shits about her because I so envy her and that itself makes her happy.
So she thinks.
ROTFL.
At piss moments like those, I wish upon everything I have that I would focus my writings and card business to get it through big time, make it real big. So big that such pig could not come even near me in comparison on material wealth and success at all. I do wish to have that ability because I have this yearning to keep her shut entirely, forever. Hahah...
I know, I am that extreme. But just expressing how I feel about this entire episode about her. The relationship is severely broken and I can assure whoever who thinks there is one day hope that we would reconcile that is as good as the moon meeting the sun one day.
So long she has this keeping up with me in her agenda in her life mission, that is no possibility what so ever to have a sis-in-law relationship. And I can bet my entire hard earn fortune (if that mere dough is considered so) on this bit. No way hosey.
That is how extreme my hate her. Haha... and yes, I am laughing, cynically.
Well... one episode about her and her ways.
But nevertheless, there are so many things in life if I were to pick it and list it like a grocery list, I have outwitted her to the floor. Hands down. I am not saying this just to make myself feel better or to blown my own trumpet. But I am saying this because this I how I believe it to be.
I have attained so much in life where she has missed out. I have gotten so much non-material and what money can't buy and those things, she would never, ever have or be better than me.
I don't want to list them down because to me, I already know. I don't even need to seek reaffirmation from anyone or anything that I am.
And I am proud I don't need what money can buy to achieve those things. And I am very sorry for her that she can't have it no matter how much she tried because the fact basic fact that she has been trying to keep up with me has already put her a step always behind me. Always.
Anyway, I have told myself to just live my live to the fullest and live it the way I want it to be, regardless how much she tries emulating me. TRY hard to ignore because I have too much to do in this lifetime to let her affect what I want to do with my own life.
Though I have been going this far too long, there is however occasions like this which she would affect me, to some extend.
Honestly, as much heartless as some people would consider me, I wish she would one day beak off with my nice BIL so he can go get a truly nice chick. But anyway, I am just talking for the sake of myself, not him.
I wish him happiness no doubt but when it comes to her, argh! Donkey shit! Hahah...
OK, I'm done bitching about her for this time around. Heheh... bloody cow dung.
Yeah, she is that much better than me. To so much extend that I am here, typing shits about her because I so envy her and that itself makes her happy.
So she thinks.
ROTFL.
At piss moments like those, I wish upon everything I have that I would focus my writings and card business to get it through big time, make it real big. So big that such pig could not come even near me in comparison on material wealth and success at all. I do wish to have that ability because I have this yearning to keep her shut entirely, forever. Hahah...
I know, I am that extreme. But just expressing how I feel about this entire episode about her. The relationship is severely broken and I can assure whoever who thinks there is one day hope that we would reconcile that is as good as the moon meeting the sun one day.
So long she has this keeping up with me in her agenda in her life mission, that is no possibility what so ever to have a sis-in-law relationship. And I can bet my entire hard earn fortune (if that mere dough is considered so) on this bit. No way hosey.
That is how extreme my hate her. Haha... and yes, I am laughing, cynically.
Well... one episode about her and her ways.
But nevertheless, there are so many things in life if I were to pick it and list it like a grocery list, I have outwitted her to the floor. Hands down. I am not saying this just to make myself feel better or to blown my own trumpet. But I am saying this because this I how I believe it to be.
I have attained so much in life where she has missed out. I have gotten so much non-material and what money can't buy and those things, she would never, ever have or be better than me.
I don't want to list them down because to me, I already know. I don't even need to seek reaffirmation from anyone or anything that I am.
And I am proud I don't need what money can buy to achieve those things. And I am very sorry for her that she can't have it no matter how much she tried because the fact basic fact that she has been trying to keep up with me has already put her a step always behind me. Always.
Anyway, I have told myself to just live my live to the fullest and live it the way I want it to be, regardless how much she tries emulating me. TRY hard to ignore because I have too much to do in this lifetime to let her affect what I want to do with my own life.
Though I have been going this far too long, there is however occasions like this which she would affect me, to some extend.
Honestly, as much heartless as some people would consider me, I wish she would one day beak off with my nice BIL so he can go get a truly nice chick. But anyway, I am just talking for the sake of myself, not him.
I wish him happiness no doubt but when it comes to her, argh! Donkey shit! Hahah...
OK, I'm done bitching about her for this time around. Heheh... bloody cow dung.
