I realised everyone lives a dream. I live on mine. In fact, I live on many, many dreams. And I realized there has been many dreams which money can attain, I have managed to wrangled my way through and somehow get a piece or 2 of it. But obviously not everything, yet. YET. As for attaining what money cannot buy, I am working on it to many extends to fulfill myself. To put meaning and purpose about my life so it will always have fun and love over the entire journey called my "little life." I work towards being as happy as possible everyday I can so there is no moments that I am left with sadness, heartache or frustration. I can't be perfectly so but I try and will try and keep trying. Or try my very best.
But nevertheless, I don't believe several things as I thread along and I am meaning it in the most humble and sincere manner, with no airs about it.
Firstly, I don't need to apologies for having to afford nice things which I am passionate about. If there are people who envy me and think I happened to have a money trees blooming behind my backyard, then so be it. I'm not going to sweat about this and try to make such people feel that I am worthy of my enjoyment because I have worked hard for the money. But I am not going to show it off like my SOL or to anyone for that matter just to boost my ego. I don’t need such thing to live by.
Secondly, I don't need to explain myself over my choices or how I spend my money. People who decently care for me and is interested for my happiness will not demand an explanation or question my taste or choice. People who loves me would enjoy the moments with me instead of interrogating me as if I have committed a murder on the dance floor. I should by all means not be bothered about laments on my choice even or worst still worry what people think of me garnering from the choices I have made. Or be bothered with how people perceived me to be just because I choose this rather than that.
Thirdly, I don't see any reason whatsoever that I should stay on the same mainstream life just like everyone else just so not to be raising any eyebrows or having to explain myself over it. If people think I need to explain then these people should not even be my friend. And I should not even be bothered what people think of me for leading the way I want to lead. I should just chill and be happy however I want it to be.
There I have said. So if people think this is the core of an attitude problem, then so be it too. I am not even denying I don't have an attitude. And, I am absolutely not going to apologies for being so. I don't need that.
Yes, the fat lady has sung. Enough said. Hmph!
PS: Fatin wrote on my wall in FB, partly about my ex-blog. I told her I shut it to shut preying people. I hope those motherfuckers get the message. Muahah. I am such a bitch some times.
