I thought I was sleepy but I wasn't after turning on the lapping and surf my life away like there is no tomorrow. It is 3am++ now but my body refuse to go to slumber because weekends are super precious. I do wish that Sat and Sun has 48 hours a day. Honestly...
While I am done with 6 designs for the Xmas card I planned to print, 2 don't seemed to be good enough for me. I haven't gotten the time today and I must say it has to be completed tomorrow as otherwise, God knows when I would even get it through. Plus I am starting to doubt of the capability of the printer to print the exact work for me. Honestly.
But I don't think I should be worried about it yet because there is so much I can do since I have not reach that juncture just yet. Plus, maybe, it won't happen. So don't worry unless there is a need <-- yes, reassuring / reminding myself! Haha...
While I am done with 6 designs for the Xmas card I planned to print, 2 don't seemed to be good enough for me. I haven't gotten the time today and I must say it has to be completed tomorrow as otherwise, God knows when I would even get it through. Plus I am starting to doubt of the capability of the printer to print the exact work for me. Honestly.
But I don't think I should be worried about it yet because there is so much I can do since I have not reach that juncture just yet. Plus, maybe, it won't happen. So don't worry unless there is a need <-- yes, reassuring / reminding myself! Haha...
Janie called me yesterday and gave me some bad news about herself. The doctors have found another growth in her liver. I was lost for words there but all I can tell her is not to think too much about it and just take one step at a step and focus on what needs to be done at every moment. From now till month end where she is scheduled for the biopsy, I suggested her to keep herself occupied with things to do so she doesn't spend too much time worrying about the growth. After all, worrying more or worrying less would not cease the growth. I pray for Janie's recovery and that the growth is not cancerous in any way. I pray for her strength to beat this through and above it all, I pray for her to have less worry and at peace. I guess what she needs most now is our prayers.
I don't want to lose a friend. I am not ready. Because I want to see Janie go through her odds before it is time for her to go so that she can mark people's life that she is a fabulous person after all despite what some mother fuckers think or say about her. I want her to prove her point.
Plus, I want her to live through life with perfect and absolute happiness without those heartache and pressure she has been living through for the past 8-9 years. I want her to enjoy the deserving happiness and peace.
And above it all, I want her to be able to hold Stanford's hand and see him grow into a great young man that any mother would be proud. Janie needs to live. So God, please, please, give her all the blessings and please, keep Janie alive. I pray for her to finally find happiness she deserve as a human being after all this health problems is settled. She has to have that many more years to log before she is to be called back. So God, these are my prayers...
As I am typing this also, I just want to acknowledge my heartfelt thanks for God and the people who often pray for me. I just want to return the blessings because I feel what they have blessed me with, overwhelms me at times. And life, despite its ups and downs has been kind to me and so, I pray for all that you guys need so as life is happy and healthy. And I want God and the people who cares for me to know I truly appreciate the blessings. Thank you a million.
Anyway, my mind has not been up much to anything mischevious these few days. Hehe.. after news of Janie, the bitchiness is all gone, just subtle worry for Janie and occasional wonder what's going on with long loss.
Pretty much threading along that line... :-)
Running has been good. But today I had this pang if ever I would run the 21k after all. It even got me wondering if I would still be interested in participating anything >10km races. It got me wondering if I should be bothered since I love running as a hobby, so the question is why stress over training for races? Heheh... well, let's see. Those unGodly discipline of morning runs and etc... it's berserk lah! Hehe...
Well, so much for my thoughts at this moment of 3.42am... I wanna continue my surfing escapade...
