I think I am a person who is pretty hard to please. Haha. But sometimes, as anyone would note, I would brush off to claimed, it takes so little to please me.
Oh... women. And I happened to be one.
My honest feeling today was good, then it went a little sad in the afternoon right after my boss called me to ask about my staff's last promotion. Apparently, he proposed that they are to be promoted this time around but big boss said it's too soon {and yes, they were promoted just 1.5 years ago). I was of course happy for them because for those who has worked hard and given a fair share of their effort, they deserve it.
But, the action of promotion triggered me to wonder for myself. As much as I could just say I am that open hearted and not bothered of such things, I would only be lying through my crooked teeth.
It's been 4 years since I last got my promotion. And I am to bitch that not a single year in my life from the day I got promoted have I laid down in Shavasana and waited for the next one to come by.
I am sad because while it is everyone's turn getting their pinch of the promotion and here I am, getting sidelined over it year after year.
I have had this conversation with my boss, what does it take for me to be getting the next jump and here I am equipping myself with what it takes but for the 2 years I have been in Risk, I don't seemed to see any good news. This is year 3.
And this, saddens me. I totally feel as if, if anything there is in this world that would not want to move with me, it would be this piece. Not even my Stallion which I am having trouble getting a good buyer. At least, I know there are avenues which I have and did not ventured into so I do know that I have not done my mightiest best to secure a buyer, somehow.
Nevertheless, it is not so for my job. I get rating 2 every year. Though never 1 because that is near impossible within my group standards. I am even in the supposedly high-potential list of people in the bank and on top of that, I can list the projects and assistance I have rendered over and over again to portfolio that totally don't belonged to me or when anyone just hollar for an assistance. Or just when the big boss opens his mouth to ask. I will take it without complain. I will complete it without complain. I have even added on to my extra working hours just to finish these stuff just so, everything would be in ready mode when it is supposed to be.
I learnt up my numbers and my portfolio by heart. I even monitor them like a hawk day in and out. I ensured I know what is happening in my portfolio, between Sales, CI and Collection. And it has even come to a point where I can now anytime command an audience to talk about the product I handle. No problem. I don't even need time to prepare.
And if I were to say they have failed to recognise me, that is altogether wrong, because as I have said above, I get Ratings 2 and I am even in the list of hi-po. I am not complaining about that. They have acknowledged me by giving handsome increments and bonuses year after year. These itself have attested to my performance.
So with almost every determinants to go to the next level, and points checked, I am sadden that people have overlooked me for a promotion.
I have to selfishlessly admit that it is not about the money. That, they have given me enough. But what I am asking for is a piece of recognition which I am adamant that it is all due. Of which, I have no qualms that I have paid more than sufficient dues to be getting it.
So yes, I am sad. I am sad if this time around again, my big boss looks pass me. I would be sad.
But this time around, I will as my usual self, ask to be explained my short comings and I will continue to work for it. BUT, as I have done all there is stated last year, I would make it a point to express my disappointment because for the past 3 years, I have been very silent about the matter bas I totally understand that I was coming from a different background then and thus, I would need time to prove myself self worth before I could be recommended for a promotion.
And 3 years has come and go. I have proven pretty much enough.
I don't think also, I would be able to accept any other crap talk if my boss were to babble on 'excuses' this time around. I have made up my mind that I will speak my mind. Just to be fair to myself.
I mean, even the cranniest ass is probably higher level than me by now {of course not many people can compare their earnings} but as I have said, it is no longer about the money. It's about being recognise.
We'll see. We'll see. We'll see.
Oh... women. And I happened to be one.
My honest feeling today was good, then it went a little sad in the afternoon right after my boss called me to ask about my staff's last promotion. Apparently, he proposed that they are to be promoted this time around but big boss said it's too soon {and yes, they were promoted just 1.5 years ago). I was of course happy for them because for those who has worked hard and given a fair share of their effort, they deserve it.
But, the action of promotion triggered me to wonder for myself. As much as I could just say I am that open hearted and not bothered of such things, I would only be lying through my crooked teeth.
It's been 4 years since I last got my promotion. And I am to bitch that not a single year in my life from the day I got promoted have I laid down in Shavasana and waited for the next one to come by.
I am sad because while it is everyone's turn getting their pinch of the promotion and here I am, getting sidelined over it year after year.
I have had this conversation with my boss, what does it take for me to be getting the next jump and here I am equipping myself with what it takes but for the 2 years I have been in Risk, I don't seemed to see any good news. This is year 3.
And this, saddens me. I totally feel as if, if anything there is in this world that would not want to move with me, it would be this piece. Not even my Stallion which I am having trouble getting a good buyer. At least, I know there are avenues which I have and did not ventured into so I do know that I have not done my mightiest best to secure a buyer, somehow.
Nevertheless, it is not so for my job. I get rating 2 every year. Though never 1 because that is near impossible within my group standards. I am even in the supposedly high-potential list of people in the bank and on top of that, I can list the projects and assistance I have rendered over and over again to portfolio that totally don't belonged to me or when anyone just hollar for an assistance. Or just when the big boss opens his mouth to ask. I will take it without complain. I will complete it without complain. I have even added on to my extra working hours just to finish these stuff just so, everything would be in ready mode when it is supposed to be.
I learnt up my numbers and my portfolio by heart. I even monitor them like a hawk day in and out. I ensured I know what is happening in my portfolio, between Sales, CI and Collection. And it has even come to a point where I can now anytime command an audience to talk about the product I handle. No problem. I don't even need time to prepare.
And if I were to say they have failed to recognise me, that is altogether wrong, because as I have said above, I get Ratings 2 and I am even in the list of hi-po. I am not complaining about that. They have acknowledged me by giving handsome increments and bonuses year after year. These itself have attested to my performance.
So with almost every determinants to go to the next level, and points checked, I am sadden that people have overlooked me for a promotion.
I have to selfishlessly admit that it is not about the money. That, they have given me enough. But what I am asking for is a piece of recognition which I am adamant that it is all due. Of which, I have no qualms that I have paid more than sufficient dues to be getting it.
So yes, I am sad. I am sad if this time around again, my big boss looks pass me. I would be sad.
But this time around, I will as my usual self, ask to be explained my short comings and I will continue to work for it. BUT, as I have done all there is stated last year, I would make it a point to express my disappointment because for the past 3 years, I have been very silent about the matter bas I totally understand that I was coming from a different background then and thus, I would need time to prove myself self worth before I could be recommended for a promotion.
And 3 years has come and go. I have proven pretty much enough.
I don't think also, I would be able to accept any other crap talk if my boss were to babble on 'excuses' this time around. I have made up my mind that I will speak my mind. Just to be fair to myself.
I mean, even the cranniest ass is probably higher level than me by now {of course not many people can compare their earnings} but as I have said, it is no longer about the money. It's about being recognise.
We'll see. We'll see. We'll see.
