As today is the first day of work in the office, I came in with impartiality, indifferent and unperturbed to the state of matter when I left the office on Thursday, 31 December.
Half the people have returned. I am unfazed.
Then the build up of small commotion begun because the little mass of people were indulging in their joy for the things some colleague has bought and the yada yada yada goes.
I clogged my ears with my earphones so that French lounge music has a chance to pulsate my hearing sense. Ah, much better.
Then from an indifferent feeling, I became a little disgruntled because I started to make opinions over the satirical people sitting around me, the racket and 'pasar' {market} feeling evokes.
I am being reminded, they did not change in any sense, my paradigm has shifted a little. It's me. Not them.
That is because I came to work, being much focus to the issue at hand. The issue that has been lingering in my solemn thoughts, bearing it like a small pack of weighted sack upon my shoulder since last week. I needed to master the issue before I can feel liberated. I need to move and march if that is what it takes and get it right. That is my calling now. My aim for 2010 in my job.
This glitch has degraded this thing I make a living from, from a career to a job.
Well, one has to walk through the broken glasses and get over to the pebbles and cobbler stones. There is no choice.
