I have decided to stop. Stop from what I have been doing the whole of today and smell the roses. And my version of smell the roses is writing this piece.
My life has indeed been super busy but I honestly am enjoying every bit and minute of it now. I don't know if this euphoric feeling is because I have been exercising 6 days a week which has induced all the happy hormones coming out from its closet to play. Or is it really, I am enjoying life as it really is after all the heartaches I have gone through in 2009 and most recent news about my job that I have decided I want to just live life.
But it sure hell is a great. *smile*
About work. I realized I would work hard so long I see myself attaining an objective. And I realized also when I see myself growing step by step towards my objective and doing it relatively well, it brings me more than satisfaction. In fact, I have to admit that my move to Cards has been liberating thus far. Big L has given me the upper hand that I need to work my way around my deliverables. He has also been less intrusive and allow me ample space to grow and learn within my capacity. I can't express how much piece of space means to me. So as I move along, slow and steady, learning something new everyday at work, I am a happy person.
Of course, in this 1 month journey, it has not been all smooth sailing. I have still a gunny sack full of report readiness once we cut-over after this weekend. We are doing as much as we could to ensure we are sufficiently equip with what it takes to run the business-as-usual but it sure is scary. It's basically, venturing into the unknown until what becomes of it. Just as walking into a tunnel you know that is definitely dark and damp but not knowing if there is indeed a pot of gold or a pot of shit at the end of it. But life lesson has taught me enough to stay positive and hope for the best and worry less until we come to the bridge. I mean, what can I now do which is under my control is being carried out to the best of my staffs' and my effort.
My feat has also been gasping the works of Cards business at an entirety level. It is a tough feat since I have been born and bred a Banking product person. So learning about Cards is totally like a revamp of what I already know. Plus, the dynamics of Cards is colossal. But it is nevertheless, fun and challenging.
I have been running quite a bit. And despite the occasional stress on the knees, I am feeling great about it no doubt, I am no where at 15km standards yet. But still, it's great.
But what I discovered was falling in love with the cross trainings I have embarked. It is simply fun. And all I can recollect every time I am done is, "Gosh, this is just so fun." *grin* Tennis classes itself is a great workout and as the weeks go by, discovering that I have now better control over my balls is sheer satisfaction of being able to just do that. What simple person I am. Haha…
To top that, I am back to cycling too. The mere fact of having the wind caressing the apple of yours cheeks and the exertion push while cycling uphill is challenging enough to be rewarded by the rolling down hills after the hard work of going up. It is fun. Rolling through over and about the hills is simple audacious fun. I can't find any other words to express.
Well, so much for now. I want to get back home and do some light cycling over the lamp posts. Sssshhhh… do not tell Eugene about it. *wink* or should I just get into my yoga mat - 30 minutes of meditation and 1 hour of just simple stretches and sun salutation should also be invigorating enough to stay strong for the day *wink* Hmmm. Let's see which is more interesting when I reach home…
