Running Thoughts -The Past & The Thing About Family and Kids

I went for a run this evening. First I was running much slower than I normally do, then I felt that tight chest breathing which only happens to unfit people. I rolled my eyes but I told myself no sweat because at least I am running without ankle or knee aches! Every cloud has a silver lining eh! *smile*

But despite the strain, my thoughts pass many things.

I realized to go on with life, I can't give much thoughts to the past. Afterall, the past is the past which can't turn back whether it's for better or worst. I have to shove everything good and bad aside and live for the future. Maybe, offlate I have been free at work, ie free enough to cloud my thoughts with the past. It has to be. But am I willing to let it go since I am so good at moving along? *grin*

I realized I have no choice if I want to live my life to the fullest as I believe it should be. Never look back. Never.

In a way, Facebook does has some influence in hindering me to move forward because people of the past reconnects there. So there has been points that I wonder if I should after all disconnect FB. Though the other hand of me thinks it is a silly act because I am what I am for the past which has been. Besides, it is good to be in touch with the people we know after all. It is nice to know what is after all happening. But this is just a food for thought.

Then I told myself I should take some effort to get up those early mornings like I used to just to keep that fitness level up. I mean I don't need that 7-8km run each time, just mere slow mo 5km would suffice. More yogas and more walks, which is enough to keep me going. Honestly, some of my used to be lean parts have turned soggy and flabby... Hehehe... I must!

I also did wonder if ever I would overcome I freak thoughts of being all bloated preggo and having to dedicate 90% of my time to a kid. I honestly still can't. I have this phobia about the entire episode of it from being pregnant to giving birth to raring that mini me. Maybe I think too much. It has got to be because literally everyone who is married around me now has at least a kid.

That also brings me to wonder, what does these people see so much in a kid? I mean I could see more cons than pros in it. Some parents which I think is an absolute sour grapes to our freedom often lament the things we are missing. Like what exactly? Many of these people can just give me the standard account of joy having a kid which I have been hearing since I could understand adults. So what is new eh?

And the best part is, some parents are so into that boring parenthood thingy that they profess they have gone through our kind of life and this bit with the tinies is better, apparently. But I would like to express my view of a kid-less person that these parents have failed to go through the part of financial stability with all d freedom in this world when you literally feel the world is in your hands.

Other point which I detest about these parents is their deceiving perception that they are the most selfless people in this world!!! Just because they are responsible for some kid. In the eyes of a kidless person, I personally feel they are quite the opposite! Most often than not they are to busy and protective over their brood that all they care is their kid and family, other people can be whatever to he'll they care. Besides, they would never have time for anyone else but their kid and the family. I noticed this in almost every of the family people around me.

On those colleagues, especially those who have missed their freedom, they so utterly crave to get away from their family when opportunity arises, especially when there are function in the office to make the excuse. Crap shit. And some losers mandates us to join in the name of team building... God. Please save us.

Obviously they have the most say because they are the majority! Hahaha.. Funny people eh...

Well enough hantam of these boring bunch of people. For all I know when I actually become one I am worst than all I have said. Haha... But for this one, while I can't possibly beat them I will definitely NOT join them. Such freaks... Hehehe...