Sometimes it takes me ages to think what really to write because at times, my opinion really looks fuzzy if opinions and thoughts can be made into images.
The week has been a fun one for me really, like a walk around the theme park with some adrenalin rush, worry, fear, laughter and pleasant surprises. So I am not complaining. Though next week will be the quite a feat, I try not to envisage what will become of it until then. No use ponder over matters which I am not doing anything about.
As usual, I was stucked in the jam for a Godly 1 hour 10 minutes just to reach home. Sometimes, I do wonder why people torment themselves braving through this hideous journey just to get back home. Maybe like me, people need to go home to eat. Haha.. and they can't wait until the jam cease. Most things (which I can think off now) can wait additional 1 hour.
Like one can pop into the nearby bar next to the office and chill for the weekend. Start celebrating with capital H for hallelujah kinda thing. Why not if not other then a hungry tummy?
As I was building my patience power in the car, I received a message from my boss who is now in Singapore with my ex-boss. They made a trip just to have a drink with him. How profound.
He had this said in exact, "I am drinking with Dom now and one of the conversations was u. He is still so fond of u and glad that he hired u."
My jaw dropped.
For many, many reasons.
For as many years that I could recall, I have been living in this sea of perception of those envious very-sad-no-life-mediocre that I do not deserve the position and recognition I have gotten. And these are said from people who either do not know me well enough and gets all green envy when I walk and stand tall when ever I strike in the office (I just had to add it on with an attitude here hahaha) looking all prim and proper, with an attitude and energy that infects, or by people who works with me who envies my recognition because they did not get what they 'think' they deserve. Or think / feel / believe I have gotten far more then them.
It sickens me. But I have come to a point where when I feel such attitude is being imposed upon me unjustly, I close up and abandon the person entirely without giving even a single form of acknowledgement or discard the entire link of friendship or ignore the people entirely.
I have indeed learnt my lesson well. Stay away from bosses as much as you can so there is no basis for tongues to wag. And when such recognition is given when due, there is absolutely no reason what so ever can anyone find to justify their right to envy.
I don't even want to explain myself as true friend will never need me to do that.
Besides that, I am flattered. I am flattered because for the longest time my memory could serve me, no one has given me supposedly due compliments about me. As in, a compliment which I could whole heartedly accept with 2nd thoughts if there was an agenda behind it.
Yes, such are people these days. 95% of the people gives something good out for a reason which they hope for something in favor of a return. Not because they think people deserve the compliment for the things they do and so they give one.
So I am touched because Dom falls under this very special 5% of the people I know.
I am also amazed with myself because with all honesty, I was just merely giving my best at work. Always. I can't deny that I have no-mood-to-work days and feeling-like-a-useless-wreck days but I keep it on with the thought that I need to be fair to my employer for paying me. I don't want to short change them for fee they pay me to do work. And that is the very reason, I do my best, or rather TRY to do my best.
Besides, I need the dough badly enough to fund my passion. I mean, who is gonna feed those stuff if I don't have this job? Therefore, I can't give my employer a reason that I am not good enough to be paid that salary and likewise, I need to give them every reason.
So by end of the day now, I truly feel my point has been made and I have proven myself that I am worthy of what I have done. That, is something I don't need to just believe because someone has affirm that without qualms.
Amen.
The week has been a fun one for me really, like a walk around the theme park with some adrenalin rush, worry, fear, laughter and pleasant surprises. So I am not complaining. Though next week will be the quite a feat, I try not to envisage what will become of it until then. No use ponder over matters which I am not doing anything about.
As usual, I was stucked in the jam for a Godly 1 hour 10 minutes just to reach home. Sometimes, I do wonder why people torment themselves braving through this hideous journey just to get back home. Maybe like me, people need to go home to eat. Haha.. and they can't wait until the jam cease. Most things (which I can think off now) can wait additional 1 hour.
Like one can pop into the nearby bar next to the office and chill for the weekend. Start celebrating with capital H for hallelujah kinda thing. Why not if not other then a hungry tummy?
As I was building my patience power in the car, I received a message from my boss who is now in Singapore with my ex-boss. They made a trip just to have a drink with him. How profound.
He had this said in exact, "I am drinking with Dom now and one of the conversations was u. He is still so fond of u and glad that he hired u."
My jaw dropped.
For many, many reasons.
For as many years that I could recall, I have been living in this sea of perception of those envious very-sad-no-life-mediocre that I do not deserve the position and recognition I have gotten. And these are said from people who either do not know me well enough and gets all green envy when I walk and stand tall when ever I strike in the office (I just had to add it on with an attitude here hahaha) looking all prim and proper, with an attitude and energy that infects, or by people who works with me who envies my recognition because they did not get what they 'think' they deserve. Or think / feel / believe I have gotten far more then them.
It sickens me. But I have come to a point where when I feel such attitude is being imposed upon me unjustly, I close up and abandon the person entirely without giving even a single form of acknowledgement or discard the entire link of friendship or ignore the people entirely.
I have indeed learnt my lesson well. Stay away from bosses as much as you can so there is no basis for tongues to wag. And when such recognition is given when due, there is absolutely no reason what so ever can anyone find to justify their right to envy.
I don't even want to explain myself as true friend will never need me to do that.
Besides that, I am flattered. I am flattered because for the longest time my memory could serve me, no one has given me supposedly due compliments about me. As in, a compliment which I could whole heartedly accept with 2nd thoughts if there was an agenda behind it.
Yes, such are people these days. 95% of the people gives something good out for a reason which they hope for something in favor of a return. Not because they think people deserve the compliment for the things they do and so they give one.
So I am touched because Dom falls under this very special 5% of the people I know.
I am also amazed with myself because with all honesty, I was just merely giving my best at work. Always. I can't deny that I have no-mood-to-work days and feeling-like-a-useless-wreck days but I keep it on with the thought that I need to be fair to my employer for paying me. I don't want to short change them for fee they pay me to do work. And that is the very reason, I do my best, or rather TRY to do my best.
Besides, I need the dough badly enough to fund my passion. I mean, who is gonna feed those stuff if I don't have this job? Therefore, I can't give my employer a reason that I am not good enough to be paid that salary and likewise, I need to give them every reason.
So by end of the day now, I truly feel my point has been made and I have proven myself that I am worthy of what I have done. That, is something I don't need to just believe because someone has affirm that without qualms.
Amen.
