I just had a conversation from someone I knew back in my Collection days and I must say, the individual has not change much but I have.
I realized I have moved away from the cynical person I used to be along with the group of people I thought I was OK back then.
I realized I have become what I want to be in this span of 3 years, the very person I want to be without having need to worry if I 'fit' into certain category of people so I am able to work and be doing well in my job.
I realized I no longer need to pass any judgment how good a person is be it in their work or life or as a person anymore. It just does not amuse me who and what people are. Nor how other people feel or think about other people. And who is better and who is not. While I hold my opinion, it is solely my opinion garnered from my experiences with whoever I have. But I don't care what people have got to say because by end of the day, it does not matter or make any difference to anyone's life. What really I had shred is my ability to listen to what these 'commentator' has got to say. Somehow, the entire soul gets suck out the moment they start giving me their opinion and the thing about God giving us 2 ears makes all the sense (the left is meant to enter, the right, exit or vice versa).
I realized I no longer need to justify for my actions or decision because at where I am now, my boss, and people around me do accept me as what I am and I am given the space to breath, think and say in a fashion where it is constructive and positive. I am not made to force to do things I do not believe in or made to believe in, for any matter. Nor have or would I be threaten about my increment or bonus (indirectly especially) if I do not execute well. Nobody cares what I really think or feel, then.
I realized my goals in life is far beyond that small world of these people who thought they were everything that they were today. And I realized how shallow these people are as compared where I am now.
I have heeded Pete's advice. I pushed myself forward despite the protest of being a victim of circumstances. I went on lugging my heavy feet though many of times, I refuse to let go the unjust that has been cursed on me. I did move.
And boy, it feels great to be away from such people. Such negative, pessimistic, judgmental, full of talk but not living their life people.
I'm happy I'm away from these crap.
Well, it's one hell of a ride but I won't want to do this again. It's too much of a heartache and pain.
This feeling is such an attestation to how far I've moved away. And it's superb.
Let's continue moving on…
