At the corner of my mind lingers the fact that it is year end and all should be tapering if not taking a breather, forgiven and forgotten.
Yet, these words resonates fact of the matter about me as an individual who has not been able to forgive and forget to a selection of people. Despite the feeling, the Marilyn Monroe attitude of me provokes me not to bother about so because there is more to life than holding dearly to a Sainthood attitude of forgiving and forgetting.
I mean, why force yourself to feel that way just because everyone says it sets you free? And why force when you don't feel like forgiving and forgetting? So why, bother trying something you don't feel like doing after all?
It says here, it's good for the soul.
So is exercise and enough sleep. Yet, people still don't do it.
See what I mean.
And therefore, Verniela has decided, this quote is just irrelevant. It just wants you to make the world a better place and in hope that everyone would.
So sometimes, in a mood like this, I question the fact of the matter that why don't those selection of people stop competing with me, stop being an ultra selfish cow or stop being a motherfucker opportunist?
It's like, why don't North Korea stop being what they are so other countries need not build nuclear in order to defend themselves if ever there is a need.
Forgiving and forgetting is just like not building your own nuclear for those rainy days. Because it just goes to say, you are letting go all defense. Thus if it comes a day where your guard is down, there it goes again, those mother fuckers come charging with the ridiculous fucking attitude so they will feel great about themselves at the expense of you.
Forgiving and forgetting is basically not
1. being ignorant to what they do {because when you like people, you care} or say and,
2. being indifferent to their existence {so they still stop irritating the you}
So how can it be that, someone don't put on these fences of defense so just not to get yourself unnecessarily hurt, piss or irritated?
The world is no longer all buttercups and sunshine or sweet almond and honey pie or rainbows and butterfly. Though of course, we can choose to believe there is always silver lining to every cloud and love is all that it takes. There is of course, such occasion too. I am positive.
But at the same time, what I am saying is, we people still needs to take care of ourselves of evil people who are always out there to get something for themselves which may cause you grieve and total unwarranted anxiety.
So what better way but to build your ground of defense and then enjoy your life to the max taking no heed of them in whatsoever way. Which, ultimately boils down to the fact that, you just don't need to forgive and forget.
There, I've justified myself for not doing it. So, stop telling me how to lead my life. Face reality.
