So much of returning to the office and here I am starting to feel the pinch of annoyance this person who is supposedly to be someone I look up to. Someone I could run to when I am in trouble. Someone I can rely for advice and guidance when I am loss. Someone I could trust. And someone I know, would give me a great pinch of salt that I need every now and then. But, that's all "supposedly."
Over the course of 3 years, I have manage to totally understand this person and I have manage to see through him. And I am sad to conclude that I do not feel what I should. It is sad.
And continually whenever I feel this annoyance, I try my very best to look at all his better points just to be fair to him. But in a totally unfortunate circumstance, the very elements and principles which I hold dearly while thriving in this corporate world are his weaknesses I see so visibly every other day and every other time I interact with him. So the net of it all, the weaknesses overrides all the strengths there is left.
In all honesty, I cringe at the thought of working anything out with him because it is always me that ends up doing everything else and it is him by end of the day who gets the glory. To even make matters worst, 8/9 of the time he doesn't know how I do it and yet, he still gets the glory.
Time and time again, he treats us like his secretary, printing for him pages over pages of bloody e-mails which he fail to read {or claimed to have read but doesn't really know what really is the content - apparently}. Apparently, we have raise this issue but when the urgency arises and he is lack of the efficiency of searching for 'that' email, he makes us kill more trees just for his convenience.
This is just one example.
When I returned from my week long leave, I realized, he has waited for my return to commence an urgent and important job. There was Wednesday and Thursday to start working before my return yet, nothing has been done.
So just yesterday when I was clearing and catching up for loss time, he popped at my cubi, telling me there is something very urgent and important to be done AND he will walk through with me after lunch. He was muttering some need for this and that. And I totally gave him the benefit that he KNOWS WHAT EXACTLY is required.
When I went to him after lunch to confirm, I got this crap:
1. Print for him the entire gist of the e-mail communication pertaining this exercise because he didn't really read what is required
2. Not very sure what really is required when I questioned him on the term 'marginal'
3. Had the cheek to ask one of my colleagues, what he knows by the term 'marginal' and tried making some guess about it --> I gave THE look and asked if really that is what big boss meant. And all he could say in defense is when boss explained to him what he required last week, boss was in a hurry and he didn't question too much. Common man!
4. Ask me if I know how to do it
5. Then proceed with asking me how am I doing to do it
6. When could I complete it
7. Insist I get it done by the time the big boss returns next week
8. Finally, he said he will send a mail to boss to ensure we are all looking at the right and same thing.
Today:
1. Ask me if boss reverted with an email on those questions we poised --> as if he doesn't have his own email to check {and see what I meant by not paying attention to his emails}
2. Wonders why boss is taking so long to revert --> Harlo??? Boss is on official leave and he is like 1/4 away around the globe from us. Plus, he sent the email at 7.42pm last evening!!!
As I am typing this, the email arrive from boss. Apparently, what he assumed was not what it was supposed to be!!!
See what I mean? See? I am not supposed to get this kind of crap from someone who has the right to rank me. Who has the right to decide on my increment and bonus. And who has the right to guide and reprimand me.
I really think life is playing a big joke on me. Somehow.
