Something I Have to Forgive Someone For

This is tricky.

 

I don’t intend to forgive.

 

*smirk*

 

Because I enjoy not forgiving the person and embed that tormented feeling between us.

 

*I’m sick in the head*

 

But as I move along, I know, it is bad for me mentally. The feeling of hate infuriates even more bitterness within what a soul can already cope.

 

It’s more like somehow or rather at a point in my life, I would have no choice but to forgive this person for all that she has done to me for the sake of MY SANITY.

 

It is a matter of time.

 

And therefore, I should eventually forgive her for:

1. Ever and ever wanting to compete with me in every aspect in my life
2. Managing to be better than me in some areas which I am still struggling to accomplish [which I have not given up yet because I thoroughly believe, despite me taking it longer than her, in the long run, I would catch up in leaps and bound as I always do]
3. Being the ignorant person who feels utterly interior next to me and therefore has this ardent need to measure up with yours truly at every single juncture.
4. Copying my material purchases in practically everything I own [haha bitch, try getting a Cayman for yourself if you can afford now…]

 

As I’m typing this, my feelings are still heated when this subject comes on board. I’m not ready to forgive yet. Not until I nail her to the wall [yikes, anger, anger]. But of course, for the sake of the post, this is Something I Have to Forgive Someone For.

 

Eventually…