I've received news from my new Boss in verbal that I'll be getting my upgrade.
It's funny. I am happy yet sad at the same time. And I'm half heartedly happy because I dare not even celebrate the news until I get the letter in black and white, some time in March.
That is like a goodness, 5 months from now.
Yes, I'm hanging on. But honest to God, I'm all ready mentally and emotionally to move out of my bank if this upgrade doesn't come through. I believe I have ranted about it some time before on how frustrated I am that things are not coming through for me.
Yet, there is a sense of sadness in it which I don't quite understand and, I don't even feel elated as I thought I would be now that it's coming through.
It is not that I'm ungrateful but in fact I feel that I am every bit of deserving it. Every letter of that title. Every curve, every edge and every dot that forms those alphabet that forms the words. I'm not trying to be arrogant about it. I'm not even trying to sound rebellious about it.
I just feel I so deserve it and never in the entire 35 years of my life that I can stand with such profound self esteem to openly say it out loud here in my own blog that I so deserve this.
Mind you again, I'm am not trying to show off and be arrogant about it.
In all honesty, this entire episode has been a mix of anger, frustration, pure heart and soul hard work, unrelentless proving over and above, undying not quitting-it-until-I-get it attitude, heartache and overcoming the challenges which were wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy beyond me.
It was such a bitter sweet struggle for me having to prove this much.
Sometimes I even agree with some people that life isn't fair. Why is it that some people are so lucky that they are the coincidental VP or the political VP? And they just get it with a snap of their finger, playing politics or circumstances had it that they must be given it. Why is it that they don't need to put so much of commitment, dedication and hard work as I have to get this? To top that, some people are even given it on the basis on seniority.
I supposed, to some extend, I'm one of those unlucky people who did not get to short cut my way through this and had to go through the tedious LONG traditional method to get it.
So, people like Sara, Chris, Patrick, Maggie, Josephine, and whoever else who thinks I'm not good enough as you losers are, or even better than you are, I've got to say, I have proven myself above and beyond you all on a totally unbias battle field with new set of unbias bosses and field of work. And even better still without you guys around me, I excel beyond what I am with you guys around [which just means one thing, you bunch of wankers are totally crap. You pulled me down. Literally]
There. Go. Go eat your damn words. Shoo shoo. Get loss.
I'm done talking about this. Yay! Moving on to the next chapter in my life.
It's funny. I am happy yet sad at the same time. And I'm half heartedly happy because I dare not even celebrate the news until I get the letter in black and white, some time in March.
That is like a goodness, 5 months from now.
Yes, I'm hanging on. But honest to God, I'm all ready mentally and emotionally to move out of my bank if this upgrade doesn't come through. I believe I have ranted about it some time before on how frustrated I am that things are not coming through for me.
Yet, there is a sense of sadness in it which I don't quite understand and, I don't even feel elated as I thought I would be now that it's coming through.
It is not that I'm ungrateful but in fact I feel that I am every bit of deserving it. Every letter of that title. Every curve, every edge and every dot that forms those alphabet that forms the words. I'm not trying to be arrogant about it. I'm not even trying to sound rebellious about it.
I just feel I so deserve it and never in the entire 35 years of my life that I can stand with such profound self esteem to openly say it out loud here in my own blog that I so deserve this.
Mind you again, I'm am not trying to show off and be arrogant about it.
In all honesty, this entire episode has been a mix of anger, frustration, pure heart and soul hard work, unrelentless proving over and above, undying not quitting-it-until-I-get it attitude, heartache and overcoming the challenges which were wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy beyond me.
It was such a bitter sweet struggle for me having to prove this much.
Sometimes I even agree with some people that life isn't fair. Why is it that some people are so lucky that they are the coincidental VP or the political VP? And they just get it with a snap of their finger, playing politics or circumstances had it that they must be given it. Why is it that they don't need to put so much of commitment, dedication and hard work as I have to get this? To top that, some people are even given it on the basis on seniority.
I supposed, to some extend, I'm one of those unlucky people who did not get to short cut my way through this and had to go through the tedious LONG traditional method to get it.
So, people like Sara, Chris, Patrick, Maggie, Josephine, and whoever else who thinks I'm not good enough as you losers are, or even better than you are, I've got to say, I have proven myself above and beyond you all on a totally unbias battle field with new set of unbias bosses and field of work. And even better still without you guys around me, I excel beyond what I am with you guys around [which just means one thing, you bunch of wankers are totally crap. You pulled me down. Literally]
There. Go. Go eat your damn words. Shoo shoo. Get loss.
I'm done talking about this. Yay! Moving on to the next chapter in my life.
